Sorry everyone, for once again being so late to post....actually i was busy with some work and so down..that i didnt find my mind fine enuf to express...
Today, i am here to share with you a pice of my mind... as the title suggest..that is exactly what i feel now..B.Tech? Who me? Now whats that?
I got my degree results on the 20th of June , 2009. Managed a 8.18 DGPA.....for all non GPA ppl...thats 74.3%...sorry i forgot to mention... i hve graduated in electrical engineering....now dont ask me what is that.... i dont knw... thats wat is written on my provisional certificate....
That evening, one of my friends said..."so, now u r an engineer!" That was like a lightning strike 4 me.... never thought it that way... 'i am an engineer nw? wat is that? wat am i supposed 2 do?'...all this meant b--- s--- to me.. nothing else...its not that i say engineers r f------ but its that its a b--- s--- option for me..... i never wanted to b 1...so my friend sait "watevr..b it by choice or chance...u r 1 nw"..den i just remembered..it was neither by choice nor by chance....it was all but force n fear...i was forced 2 do it...n conceded cz i feared of the consequences that may rise otherwise....i lacked d guts to protest......was jst another mediocre gal....
this word...mediocrity,......it sux...................never was i d best in anything...but since 11th std..thats bck in 2003, this web of mediocrity engulfed me.....n ever since i didnt manage a way out..... perhaps i didnt try hard enuf.................now this mediocre life is slow poisoning me...n there 2 jus 2ways out......repair d way of life..n if its beyond repair..then end it.................but i guess d 2nd option again will b a mediocre's attitude n i am not going 2 continue as 1....
so i wud choose option 1.......................though i dont knw exactly hw 2 repair life right nw........but i hope i will come up wid ways 2 have a better life..............a step ahead of mediocrity if possible....
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Nice Article well i have the same feelings as you have i also graduated this year with 76%. Well i never really wanted to be an ER. but i am now and yeah i also believe being just an average is stagnating me . I watch everyone else people are going places and i have to be one of them.I dont want to accept me as i am i want to grow , i want to be the best but i dont know if ever that will be possible Good Luck to you hope we both make it out of this stagnating mediocrity
ReplyDelete@ lucifer.................. actually the problem wid us has been that we didnt hv d guts needed 2 go against d flow..guess nw i will be able 2 break open n go free....same 4 u also...all d best 4 ur future :)
ReplyDeletehey lopa...i stumbled upon ur blog while searching for pages on CAT.Aftr readin..u knw i felt relieved...coz i thought i was d only one who was screwed.For d past few mnths...since i bcame an 'ER' i am still trying 2 figure out wat was i doing der for 4yrs..hav passd my mech engg. this yr wid 7.96 CGPA...der was hardly any oder option...but now wen sumone asks me...wch coll or wch branch is better..i feel lyk tellin dem...all r same...try sumthing else...n it blows me off...wen de still persist...n dnt unnderstand tht de'll screwed for 4 yrs...n aftr tht dnt knw wher de stand!!! Neither did we hav d guts nor d alt options. but thts sumthing we can't do anything abt now...i really feel lyk i hav to redeem myself for all tht waste.
ReplyDeletenyways..am obsessed wid CAT too ryt now...but dnt think am doing even remotely near wat i shud to bell it...had got 92.6%ile last tym widout any prepn...but who knws....may b tht was just luck..it'll really take hell lot of effort to get into IIMs...hav got a lot to do wid quants...still den am tryin n will keep doin tht till i find my way out...hoping for d best anyway...too less tym left...all d best 2 u...