Finally somewhere...yet nowhere.....

back after almost a month.....hope everyone of u is doing well.....a lot has transpired in my life in the last few days.........ever since i decided not to go for CAT seriously (had to take it bcz parents asked to).......i didnt have anything to do...n spending 24 hrs a day becomes pathetic...u dont have anything to do and exactly then all the negatives come to your mind......i was getting frustrated day by day..looking for job....i have applied to a couple of banks and i though of preparing...but couldnt concentrate..i cant when a thousand other things are there at the back of my mind...in feb i hv my infy joining and i am desperately looking for a job so that i can join before goin to infy.....i even prepared for core sector jobs....but didnt get a single interview call.....everyday getting up..checking naukri, monster, timesjobs n wat not...n at d end of the day i m in d same position as i started...still no interview call...it gets all d more frustraing..wen u want to do something but dont have the money and have to ask parents for money..at least it frustrates me a lot..d idea of asking for money over and over again.......so frustrations still brewing as i fail to get a job till now....without contacts getting a job in real tuf...n well...i went for an interview in a finance company but what? they dont accept me bcz i m b.tech and they belive i wnt stay..even after i sign bond...huh....so after b.tech(electrical) here lies my future...engineering companies dont call...may b my cv is not good enuf (grads frm a very avg college) and non engineering sector doesnt call me bcz i m a b.tech....so where m i lying? n where is my future? ise bolte hain na ghar ka na ghat ka........
god know wat i'l d now on the job front..but smething really grt happened on d personal front...if u ppl have read chetan bhagat's 2 states u may knw abt d story...mine is similar except we r frm d same place...d story not only did affect us..ut led us to take some decisions..n at d end of it all...things have fallen in place...with both families real happy n satisfied.....and well...28th of nov was one of my best days for more than one reasons.....
n well as far as spending time goes..i hv finally enrolled for a course..very different from my engg background..n thus it was real difficult to convince my parents y i want to do it...now atleast i'l learn something n do something substantial than just whiling away my time......i also want to concentrate for bank preparation..just hope that i'l get a job.....newes talking abt bank jobs just reminded me of a blog by a SP JAIN alumni..... check this http://www.bankexamsguidance.blogspot.com/
great work friend..keep carrying on your good work....friends who want to brush up ur gk may hv a look at that blog..its grt...

newes..thats all i hv for now..will be off for a short trip to the north of our beloved country....wil b back here once i return............





P.S : sorry i forgot to mention that my tryst wid CAT 2009 is over....u can read my experience at

♫ http://www.pagalguy.com/forum/cat-and-related-discussion/46931-cat-2009-2nd-dec-day.html#post1752235


speculations regarding cancellation of this test is very high...even your's truly votes for a cancellation and conduction of a free and fair test...but we cant do nothing n hv to wait n watch what the IIMs come up with..so lets end it here........will be back soon

at war n peace

back after so many days..i again fail to keep my commitment......i promised to return soon yet once again i am late..........actually i hv been at war wid self..so disturbed that i knew not wat to put down in here...
i my last post i said i was obsessed wid CAT...n now i think it has taken its toll...i know wen i said broke this news to my fellow puys they had me shocked..so were my parents. I decided against taking CAT at all though my love for PG still persists.
I decided i wont take CAT becoz i dnt want to do an MBA......the decision was tuf......but then i had made it taking into consideration all the pros and cons......i thot y i wanted an MBA.....i nw i feel foolish for the true reason i was running there..............i was running after it for 2 reasons.
1) i am afraid of technical line....n so it was a way out
2) the craze that is associated wid MBA
n i m ashamed now that i never wanted to do an MBA after knowing wat goes into making of an MBA and the life thereafter.....i can bet many of u r also in the same boat as me..taking CAT for the very same reasons....
So after a lot of introspections i felt a life of an MBA is not i had actually dreamt in the first place..honestly i always wanted a quite and normal life.....
many of u may think i have a loser attitude and m running away from challenges in life...but i m not...i just want to lead a simple life...my motive is not money but simplicity of life..a life of love, care , compassion n not a life where i cant devote time for these......here again i m not a saint that i want no money..i want..but just enuf for a decent life..... that goes on even wid 15k a month.............and wid my decision of not taking CAT i hve come to know how narrow minded some ppl are..some of my relatives hv even taken the pain to say that i m afraid i cant do it n so m running away....hehe....ppl hv their right to think watevr they want..................n now after a weeks time of deciding not to take CAT.......i will.....not bcz i want to bt bcz my mom wants me to..bcz i hv filled d form....... i think i owe her this much n wil go to d hall to take the exam....but jus for d sake of it...wid no preparations n no intension of MBA......so no expectation frm me....thats wat i hv already told my mom....

n now i come to the war n peace wid self........ever since i decided not to take CAT...i hv been thru days high n low.....i dont know wat i want to do...life now has no motive....n i hate this life......i hv been placed wid infy as u knw...but i dnt want to go to infy...i really dont want.......i dnt intend to hurt feelings of those who think infy is one of the best companies..but i jus don want an IT job..... a job in the electrical core industry is again one for which neither i m keen not capable.....so wat nxt.....ppl may say......that is y i shud go for MBA.....but thats not wat i want... everyday i come up wid a new idea abt wat i do nxt....some parents appreciate but mostly not...........but i really dont care now..its time that i do wat i really want in life.....i knw hwever brutal this war wid self may b, but i'l get 2 d ans soon.....soon enuf i'l knw wat i want...n then i'l let u all knw...till then take care..n good luck for all ur endeavours in life

love..disease....life.........

i am suffering from a severe disease...............................................obsession with CAT......................................but the most odd thing abt this disease is that i am enjoying it every bit................n nw that i hv got my new love........................PG...............................i feel i can surely do it...cz my new love is always there wit me thru thik n thin...........i am not going consistently up the ladder.....sometimes even going dwn....but CAT is all about performing on the D -DAY..and i knw i can..... i have nominated myself for UDT n KDT...........hope i get thru.....hope PG will take care of my feelings......i love u PG...........and one more information from my side....our www.onlingua.in is again ready to rock...... i have just completed the registration process for WEBEXPERIA SOLUTIONS successfully..............

........and finally.....my terrible ringtone rang....... i woke up startled....n who was it on d other side? Rohit himself...........spoke for aounrd 15 mins in 2 sessions.....and here's d newzzz... m a PG MadCapz now...my first big newz of this season....m sooo excited....insanity rulzzz..............

Nothing new happening in life.....got a job offer which I really dont want to do now.....and one more at hand...infy...neither am i very keen on that...... I want C in my life....coz i love C............wot else.....m eager for PG MadCapz............want to join very badly.........hope i get in......i'll surely let all of you know when the list is out................

B.Tech me?

Sorry everyone, for once again being so late to post....actually i was busy with some work and so down..that i didnt find my mind fine enuf to express...
Today, i am here to share with you a pice of my mind... as the title suggest..that is exactly what i feel now..B.Tech? Who me? Now whats that?
I got my degree results on the 20th of June , 2009. Managed a 8.18 DGPA.....for all non GPA ppl...thats 74.3%...sorry i forgot to mention... i hve graduated in electrical engineering....now dont ask me what is that.... i dont knw... thats wat is written on my provisional certificate....
That evening, one of my friends said..."so, now u r an engineer!" That was like a lightning strike 4 me.... never thought it that way... 'i am an engineer nw? wat is that? wat am i supposed 2 do?'...all this meant b--- s--- to me.. nothing else...its not that i say engineers r f------ but its that its a b--- s--- option for me..... i never wanted to b 1...so my friend sait "watevr..b it by choice or chance...u r 1 nw"..den i just remembered..it was neither by choice nor by chance....it was all but force n fear...i was forced 2 do it...n conceded cz i feared of the consequences that may rise otherwise....i lacked d guts to protest......was jst another mediocre gal....
this word...mediocrity,......it sux...................never was i d best in anything...but since 11th std..thats bck in 2003, this web of mediocrity engulfed me.....n ever since i didnt manage a way out..... perhaps i didnt try hard enuf.................now this mediocre life is slow poisoning me...n there 2 jus 2ways out......repair d way of life..n if its beyond repair..then end it.................but i guess d 2nd option again will b a mediocre's attitude n i am not going 2 continue as 1....
so i wud choose option 1.......................though i dont knw exactly hw 2 repair life right nw........but i hope i will come up wid ways 2 have a better life..............a step ahead of mediocrity if possible....

i am back

hellllooooooooooooooooo everyone..............................

back after a long long long long long long long time. Dear readers, soory for being away for so long. Actually i was in college(hostel) with no internet access. Now i am done with my college. "College"...no.....i would rather call that "4 years gone waste". To be honest, college for me was nothing but a waste of time. Except for a handful of friends out in my hostel i got nothing of my college life.....oh no....yeah i got....i got the my biggest gift of life in college....i found true love there, I mound my soul mate. Yeah love has happened before...or should i say those were infatuations ? .....dont really know, because had they been love, i shouldnt have forgotten them so easily. Now, getting out of this topic, let me share with you a very dark secret. These four years at college has been a torture for me. "Engineering students" used to call be "unlucky". Not because i was the victim, but as a person from science background i dont believe in such unscientific tags. But i had to suffer. I suffered very badly because everytime people(other than very limited number of friends) encountered me they covered their eyes and went past by so that they didnt have to see me. Such was the treatment i faced. I always felt responsible for this situation , however much my friends used to console, that it was not my fault but the backwardness of those people, responsible for the situation. But always it was i who used to suffer. I always wished that my college days rush by. Only in the last 4 months i came across a guy called madhur malhotra or MADDY. He's a life coach and could successfully instill in me the feelings that it was actually not my fault and i be happy. Since then i am really trying to be happy. And honestly i am happy. Happy that i have got some very good friends...sreya, ats, rimps, piu, mads, and my dear mars. I am happy that i have a cute brother. I am happy that i have true love. I am happy that i have a life. I am happy. Thank you Maddy for instilling in me d feelings when i needed it the most. Thanks.. Thank you my friends for being there for me throughout my rough times. Thank you all. I hope in the coming days i can lead my life to the fullest and hope that god blesses me with the power to face challenges that come my way.

I wont bore you people any further today, with all these stupid craps about me. Would come back next time with a topic that will interest you all and this time i'll be back soon.

Thanks and goodbye till then..

yours truly...................